Getting out with or without Kahlan has not always been easy but has always been worth it. From day 3 I started with very gentle walks that soon turned into my usual morning walk with Kibo. At 3 weeks old Kahlan had done her first Wainwright and I had ran up Catbells...I felt so alive!!!
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| Catbells at 3 weeks old! |
Having had such a great summer getting out pretty much everyday, just local walks and into town, has helped me adjust to motherhood. It's not always been easy feeling like I am settling for less and not doing any long days out or long training sessions. I have to squeeze in what I can when I can and embrace walking with my gorgeous daughter. She makes the sacrifice worth it. I have managed a few short buggy runs and did our first mile race together at the Lakeland 100 event where we were helping out with marshalling this time. Kahlan isn't always happy in the pram though so it can be really frustrating setting out for a run and only managing 5-10 mins. So I think going out with no expectation is how I need to approach it.
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| First run out solo...20km |
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| Rannerdale Knotts July 2018 |
Doing a 15km race was really good fun. I tend to feel like I have really lost all that I built up to in running, and will never be any good at anything else which makes me sad. The race showed that I can still push myself but that also I don't really have to. And I have this constant back and forth debate as to whether I want to. Or whether I want to fight at trying to fit in all the training, or the pressure I put on myself. Just blurting out thoughts here!
For now I am going to try and focus on my gorgeous baby girl and let the other stuff follow...I need to remember the mountains and running aren't going anywhere!
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| Keswick lakeland trails 15km...3rd lady |
