Enough? Enough? Am I doing enough?

 Kibo loving the snowy, icy, slippy terrain

I'm heading out to Kenya for in a couple of weeks, for a couple of weeks. And yes I am excited for some sunshine and relaxation but can't help feeling the pressure to get the miles in before I go.
I had a target set of doing 30 miles a week from the beginning of Jan and around 2000m of ascent. The first week was a bit of a wipe out as I was down with a cold and with the weather being what it was didn't think it too wise to push it. I've managed to get in the miles over the last couple of weeks but won't lie, the ascent is lagging! And I can't help feeling a build up of panic from time to time about what is before me and if I can't get in the training whatever the weather, how am I going to achieve 100 miles!!! Have I done a stupid thing in thinking that I could, possibly, run, walk, hobble, crawl 100 miles? I hate the feeling that whatever I do is not going to be enough and want to make sure I give myself the best chance of being even close to finishing! yes, panic is setting in, can you tell??!

On a positive note I have had a couple of lovely runs out. Getting out with a friend is always great and enjoyed a steady, wet run around Derwent water. It was nice and sheltered and though a bit cold and wet at the end was able to enjoy a warm coffee at the end and relish having spent time out with a new friend, getting to know each other better, doing what we both love.
I then pushed myself to get out by myself on the weekend, which wasn't difficult as the sun was shining and there is something so special about being in the mountains when there is snow on the ground and clear skys. It was a hard 20 miles being all running terrain, even though the ice slowed me down some what, but was pleased to get some miles in and Kibo just loved playing in the snow.
I am also supplementing my running with some cycling and cross training in the gym, so trying to keep positive and reassured that it all adds up and helps.
I will plan to do what I can for the rest of the month, it's still early days I have to keep telling myself, but will look forward to some relaxing Yoga and recovery and then planning some long days out on return, preferably with company 😆