Time to chill

Ha, just wrote a post and lost it 😩 Sat drinking gorgeous Kenya tea in paradise that is Lamu. I have taken two weeks off to spend time relaxing, bonding with my sister and getting back to my roots in Kenya. I grew up in Kenya and having spent 19 years here it will always be home to me. I am lucky enough to come back and spend some time with my sister who's finances family live here, and even more lucky to come to the Island of lamu and spend a week relaxing by the beach in a home like hotel where the staff cannot do enough for you and we can do yoga every evening. Camt forget to mention eating fresh fish and of course the local tea and coffee that's just awesome. Saying that I have to admit to struggling with the idea of doing nothing for two weeks. After pushing myself in January to get in the miles and ascent and feeling like I couldn't quite do enough it's hard to switch off and be ok with the odd stroll and swim in the sea. I feel guilty and find it hard not to think of what others may be doing. Yes, I hate to admit I compare myself to others and usually those that do 60-80 miles a week, stupid amounts of ascent, not to mention the gym, swimming and extra stuff on top. So the more obsessive types. But I need to remind myself why I run, what else in life is important to me and that I do a lot more than many others. I really just want to be ok with doing less or not much for a period of time, all the while knowing that I will always want to get back to it and then embrace it more. My body I'm sure will thank me for it. Does this sound like I am trying to convince myself that's two weeks of not doing much, eating, sleeping, reading and relaxing taking time out is ok?! I think it probably does because that's probably what I'm doing lol.  Saying that I did enjoy a very leisurely jog on the beach, a paddle in the sea and am looking forward to a walk and yoga later... Maybe tomorrow I'll do much less, maybe I'll do more. I will continue to try and not let it be the be all and end all and in the mean time think about how hard I'll be working when I get back. I think I'll lie down now 😜