Right, so I am really starting to freak out. If I thought about the 100 event frequently before it's now all I think about. I go through the route, being in the dark, getting lost, eating, feeling rough, hoping to feel ok. It goes on. My biggest worry is that I haven't done the really really long days (8 hours plus). The last 2 weekends I headed out with the intention of having long days out (as in 7-10 hours), but on both occasions really struggled to get past even a couple of hours.
On the first occasion an hour in and I wanted to quit, turn around and go back. That's not unusual and can pass but after a couple of hours of just not wanting to be out and knowing the further we went the further back we had to go, we turned back. I was feeling similar on Saturday, had a bit of a panic attack, a cry and sought reassurance from my very patient husband. Long days out are meant to be about keeping going when you don't want to, pushing through no matter what. I reached that point, just not as far in as I'd hoped, so I will just hope and pray I can use the experience to keep going on the day. (These are the wise words from Joe and I feel I need to cling onto them and believe that I have done enough training).
I can tell I am tired of the pushing and now just need to focus on staying fresh, letting my sore ankle/foot rest and pray and hope that I will feel fresh and ready to face this insane challenge that is ahead...very soon!!!
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