35-36 weeks

Baby shower

Where has the time gone? Only 4 weeks till due date and it’s all getting very real. Our lives are about to change in an instance, as everyone with children tells you. How will we cope? How can we keep another human alive and remain sane? Will we ever get to do the things we love again? And...what will they look like? Will they really recognise our voices? I can’t wait to meet the little one that’s been growing inside me causing me sleepless nights and emotions that I only another women who’s been through it can relate. And even though I’ve felt her inside me and have bought all the necessary items, it’s still quite hard to believe that in a matter of weeks I am going to be a mum! And that will never change.

I have to say I know I’ve been really lucky with my pregnancy. I’ve been tired and emotional but no real worries or stresses. But I can’t say that I love pregnancy. For someone who is used to pushing themselves and puts pressure on themselves it’s not been easy, mentally or physically. I am one of those people that compares themselves to others. Often looking for assurance of what I should or am doing. But it always leads to disappointment when I generally don’t feel I don’t live up to the mark. So and so was running at 36 weeks and so and so was training in the gym for hours etc, so surely I should be. This is hard when doing an hours walk or half an hour on the bike or cross trainer is a battle. How can this be when I was running 40miles a week and cross training this time last year!!! Well, turns out that for me growing a human takes a lot of energy and my little girl wants most of the energy I have to give. 
I keep looking for written pieces from athletes that have found it hard to train. I know the importance of remaining active, and is 30mins walking enough? What if an athlete is struggling with energy? What is her limit? Does she still push through even a light session though she feels completely knackered and miserable at having to struggle day in day out until the baby arrives...
Listen to your body! Easier said than done when used to pushing it. But finally feel I have to let go now and trust that I'll get back to things when I'm ready and able. For now, enjoy the bump time and walks out with my Kibo.